Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Signing off

I am no longer updating this blog. As I move on with my life, infertility is less and less often in my thoughts. Other activities which occupy my time - training for a triathlon, cooking, practicing violin, skiing - aren’t of interest to you.

A. may want to pursue more medical options, but I am not sure I am willing to go there. Although there are many options which we haven’t pursued, 30 months of failure when I stopped counting, each month more depressed and emotional, the personal cost is just too high. Even trying to investigate potential health problems- excess estrogen/weak thyroid/low vitamin D/stress/acne- is really just another means of exploring fertility issues, and brings me back into the hope/despair cycle again.

When we are doing fun exciting things for the first time is when I most regret not having children. It would be so wonderful to expose them to these experiences and see their joy. But childfree living is also a blessing - less work and worry, and more freedom and money for ourselves. I think a child of ours would have had a great life, and it is the universe’s loss that it isn’t going to happen.

I read some of your blogs recently for the first time in many months, and was happy to see that you all are doing well- new jobs, moving, adopting, etc. Thank you for your support. I will keep dropping in from time to time to see how you work out your lives. Best wishes for making the right choices and finding happiness!


Hope2morrow said...

T, I wish you the best of luck in whatever you opt to pursue! It sounds like you are moving onward and upward. Take care of yourself and enjoy the blessing that surround you!

Guera! said...

I enjoyed reading your blog. Best Wishes.

hopeyg said...

Hey Trinx, I'm planning on coming home for Easter break and then maybe for good at the end of July. I still want to have Tempurah night. Love you, Hoper

Faith G said...

I've enjoyed reading your blog. Maybe you'll start another one someday...who knows?
Love Binx

hopeyg said...

I'm glad you had Tea and Secrets while you did. I got to know you more. Love you, Hoper

Irish Girl said...

Hey girl, just found you via your link in my stat counter. I understand wanting to walk away from infertility and writing about it only makes that harder. If you want to write about those other things in your life that you're excited about, I'll be reading :-)