Signing off

I am no longer updating this blog. As I move on with my life, infertility is less and less often in my thoughts. Other activities which occupy my time - training for a triathlon, cooking, practicing violin, skiing - aren’t of interest to you.

A. may want to pursue more medical options, but I am not sure I am willing to go there. Although there are many options which we haven’t pursued, 30 months of failure when I stopped counting, each month more depressed and emotional, the personal cost is just too high. Even trying to investigate potential health problems- excess estrogen/weak thyroid/low vitamin D/stress/acne- is really just another means of exploring fertility issues, and brings me back into the hope/despair cycle again.

When we are doing fun exciting things for the first time is when I most regret not having children. It would be so wonderful to expose them to these experiences and see their joy. But childfree living is also a blessing - less work and worry, and more freedom and money for ourselves. I think a child of ours would have had a great life, and it is the universe’s loss that it isn’t going to happen.

I read some of your blogs recently for the first time in many months, and was happy to see that you all are doing well- new jobs, moving, adopting, etc. Thank you for your support. I will keep dropping in from time to time to see how you work out your lives. Best wishes for making the right choices and finding happiness!